Jesus Moved About in Secret

Jesus in a Deserted PlaceThe thing that I noticed most about today’s gospel reading for Mass is that Jesus had to move about in secret.  Why?  Because the Jews judged him so harshly that they wanted to kill him.  He was innocent, but the Jews only saw the external things and judged what he said.  They thought they were righteous in doing this, but they weren’t.

The first reading for Mass is from the book of Wisdom, and it could have been written about Jesus’s life.  He was innocent, but judged guilty by those who were themselves very wicked.

Then, if you read the responsorial psalm today, it can also be said to reflect Christ’s life:

“The Lord redeems the lives of his servants; no one incurs guilt who takes refuge in him.”

In many ways, I can relate to all three of the readings for Mass today, but the memory that comes to mind first is how we raised our son.

Our son had a lot of medical problems and had multiple surgeries as a baby.  He grew up with a problem concentrating and paying attention.  David acted up a lot in school and had failing grades every year.  We hired an after school tutor and tried special learning resources.  David went to summer school and took correspondence courses almost every year too.  Our son barely graduated high school and the guidance counselor at his school told us that “he wasn’t college material”.

We felt like all of the teachers, principle, scout leaders, guidance counselor, church youth group leaders and other parents judged us and our son very negatively.  We really felt bad about ourselves as parents because we couldn’t teach our son to do better in school, and calm down (because he was hyperactive).  We felt like failures as parents.

Our son graduated high school and then worked part time sacking groceries at the grocery store.  He also worked part time as a janitor at our church for a year or two after graduation.

However, one day he came to me and showed me a brochure from a college that he wanted to go to, that had a curriculum in computer network security.  It was very expensive.  I was hesitant to sign a student loan and give him a lot of our own money for college, if he couldn’t actually do it.  I remembered the school guidance counselor’s words, “your son isn’t college material.”

However, I took a chance on our son and I signed the student loans and gave him as much money as I could so he could go to this college.

Our son succeeded in college beyond anything we could have ever imagined.  After college, he held a very good paying job for the past four years.  However, just this week he was hired for a new position that pays four times the salary that the guidance counselor from his high school did.   (The one who told him “he wasn’t college material”.)   He is very generous with his money too, helping his friends and sister and whoever needs some extra help, without counting the cost or asking to be repaid.

I do not tell you this story to brag about my son, but only to encourage parents, (and all of us really), that people are not what they seem to be from the outside looking in.  No one knew that my son was highly intelligent and creative, from the outside looking in.  And, no one knew that Jesus was truly the Son of the Living God from the outside looking in either, no matter how negatively other people judged him.

For all those who feel “judged” by other people, in the church, at work, in school, or in your family – I encourage you to not care what other people think about you.  Trust in Jesus Christ and believe in your family, no matter what rough spots you encounter in life.

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Daily Mass Readings:
Wis 2: 1, 12-22; Ps 33;  Jn 7: 1-2, 10, 25-30

About the Author

Hello! My name is Laura Kazlas. As a child, I was raised in an atheist family, but came to believe in God when I was 12 years old. I was baptized because of the words that I read in the bible. I later became a Catholic because of the Mass. The first time my husband brought me to Mass, I thought it was the most holy, beautiful sense of worshiping God that I had ever experienced. I still do! My husband John and I have been married for 37 years. We have a son, a daughter, and two granddaughters. We are in the process of adopting a three year old little girl. We live in Salem, Oregon in the United States. I currently serve as the program coordinator for Catholic ministry at a local maximum security men's prison. I‘m also a supervisor for Mount Angel Seminary’s field education program, in Oregon.

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17 Comments

  1. Thank you Laura. This morning you have ministered to my heart. Great reminder that we human beings can only see what is on the outside. The real gem is on the inside. Bless you.

  2. I am blessed this morning. I feel encouraged as a young mother. May the Good Lord bless you and your family.

  3. I was so moved by the story of your son, Laura. God is great. With God, there’s always possibility in impossibility.

    How great is Our God, Jesus.

  4. Thank you Sis. Laura.

    A nice reflection with a great advice.

    That is exactly what I always bear in mind. Being a volunteer in different works in our parish and in church, I don’t care what others may say or judge me.

    I may not as holy, intelligent, generous and good as they may think of, I just do what ever I think can glorify God. I even don’t care if I am not so “close” to the parish priest, but fortunately he is kind to me, I just believe that in little things I do, as long as I do it with love, I believe that He will be glorified!

    We may be judged, or talked about, after all it is He who is the All Just Judge.

    God bless!

  5. I am happy and excited to learn about this site. today’s reading has become a saving grace to me and family against something that may have been which the world frowns gravely at.
    Thank you again Laura and team. Keep at it.
    Joseph RSCI – Abuja, Nigeria.

  6. It is much easier to find fault with others than to look at ourselves. Your son was just fine all along.

  7. A beautiful reflection!
    It’s sad because some parents are ashamed of some handicap or shortcoming that maybe in one or either of their children. This sometimes affects the family in a bad way. The way you treated your son is a lesson to families who opt to suffer because of a situation like this. It requires a great faith, trusting in God and perseverance to do the best we can for our children whatever the circumstances. Not to let other people’s comments on our children pull us down but to give them a chance to be what Good wanted them to be.
    God bless.

  8. am so bless with this write up God bless you for this sharing I pray that God will make it possible for me to Over come like your son. Ebere Abuja Nigeria.

  9. If we could only see each other as our Father does with an abundance of love, compassion, mercy and as a priceless treasure. Thank you for the reminder to see through eyes of love–God’s Love. God Bless you and your family.

  10. I am a parent of gifted children who are challenged in their learning by the prescribed system that is our school system. Thank you for believing in your son; in doing so you really put him in God’s hands. I was also touched by the fact that Jesus had to move in secret. I feel I have to move in secret as I am seen as the ‘religious’ one in my family and I am always carefully choosing my words when I express anything about Jesus; I am worried I will push my sons and husband further way instead of drawing them closer. Moving boldly and confidently is difficult when you are in an environment where the status quo is appreciated more than challenging ones comfort zone. It is so difficult to know when I am being called on to evangelize and when I am being called to put them in God’s hands and just pray. It is comforting that Jesus walked a similar walk of when to speak up and when to keep quiet.

  11. My son who is twelve has been told not come to school because of his behavior. He has autism spectrum / ADHD. and I feel whether he will be able to complete his education. He has been told not to come to school and I don’t know what will happen but I just want to put my trust in Jesus

  12. Laura, thank you for sharing your inspiring story. May it serve as a lesson to all of us. Peace be with you and your family.

  13. Dear Brian, may I ask what country you live in? Here in the US, autism and ADHD is considered a mental disability and there are laws that protect a child’s right to an education. School systems are required by law to make accommodations for children that have special needs. My day job is to support families that are raising children with special needs. This is the website where I work: http://www.ofsn.org. You can also email me if you need more information at: laurak@ofsn.net. I hope you will continue to trust Jesus. He will help you find a solution. Perhaps the Holy Spirit led you to this reflection today? God bless you and your family. I will remember you and your family in my prayers tonight.

  14. Thank you for a lovely meditation. I have three (of four) children who struggle with the short term memory difficulties and attention problems associated with ADHD and some processing disorders on top of it. One surprising benefit is they seem to have been protected from many of the negative influences of our secular society. The benefits of living in your own world some days:) They are good kids, even if I have had a trying week with the youngest, a senior, as she had a difficult week with homework.

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