I have prayed about you for the past week. I am a vet also. I know that forgiveness is not an easy subject. Minor offenses are easy but life changing realities are not. I look at the Quaker families whose children were the soft targets of a mass murderer . I don’t see how but they forgave. The black church who forgave the murder of their preacher and members of their congregation. Here is some scripture Luke 6:37-38 x “Stop judging and you will not be judged. Stop condemning and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will be forgiven. Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packed together, shaken down, and overflowing, will be poured into your lap. For the measure with which you measure will in return be measured out to you.” The point I like is the cup of mercy you use will be given overflowing.
I will still keep praying for this.
Also Please read Mother Teresa’s Anyhow Prayer. It is on the internet and I like to read it myself from time to time. I was only fired once from a job. I believe that it was unfairly. Within three years the man who fired me was involved in an adulterous affair with a co-workers wife . He was only 34 and he died from a stroke. I got another job with better pay. It turned out that I was better off but at the time I bore a grudge.

Read the Anyhow Prayer and use it and the scripture to help heal. Even if you can’t contact them.
God Bless
Bob Burford
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