Blessings to you to Maria! With love – Carolyn, your sister in Christ.

Thank you Shirley. I appreciate all your posts. Know that I have held you in prayer many times. Blessings – Carolyn, your sister in Christ.

Thank you Greg!

Dear Martha. I will hold you in my prayers. You are facing a very difficult situation and, as you know, only Christ can heal your heart. I commend you for holding steadfast to your faith during these trials. Blessings – Carolyn, your sister in Christ.

Thank you Andrew!

I read almost daily the reflections on this web site , in addition to 4 other sites after reading the daily scriptures. I was so moved by your message today that l am compelled
( a first for me) to write a comment.
For the past year, 1month, and 15 days , l have been battling the worst personal turmoil ever in my life.
After 42 of marriage, l found out my husband, age 62, had fathered a child (then 1month old) in an audulterous short term relationship with a 23 year old girl.
Since then l have been battling my inner demons unable to forgive him. He has asked for forgiveness, went to confess, Etc . l allowed him to return to the house. But we are not per say living as husband and wife.
l have been ,however, unable to forgive him, l harbor deep resentment. I pray and pray, l have spoken with two different Parrish priest.One says that l have forgiven him but that l am only still gravely heartbroken. I have gone to psychiatrist and am still under the care of an psychologist.
Its just the levels of depravity is what hurts me so. We had recently moved few yrs ago to the carribean after early retirement. The girl was a relative of new friends
( we had met 3 years earlier). Not only did he have the adulterous relationship . ln my opinion he added to his deceit and depraved behavior upon bringing the girl into my house when she was 2 days to delivery, with my own grown daughter being in the house visiting the time. After the birth he brought woman back into
house with newborn to my for recuperation of the woman. They staying first 10 days, then he took her to her house, then again brought girl to my home a total of 4 times untl l returned back from the states. Everyone we know knew all except me. I figure if he had to do wrong he could of kept his dirty deeds out of my house, and been more cautious.
I have accepted baby and encouraged him to bring baby to our house. I told him baby is innocent, baby did nothing wrong.
I help take care of baby when baby is here. Wanted baby to get to know her father and for him to have a great loving relationship with this child as he did for our 2. He was a great fsther.
Still l battle internally with the pain, the humiliation, the lost of the Sanctatity of our marriage. I feel by him breaking our vows a void now exsist which l cannot seem to over come.
Notice l say house not home that is because that by him bringing his mistress here he devalued our home. There was no need to bring her to the house she wasn’t homeless. This to me shows me a complete lack of respect on his part. I can not believe you CAN do such a thing to someone you really love and respect.

Your inspiring message about forgiveness talked straight into my heart.

I shall read it over and over to help me move forward.Thanks for writing. Martha